二伯 & my rantings

This is my 二伯. He is a funny man, always disturb me with funny jokes and questions that sound really silly. He likes to watch the news & read the newspaper a lot a lot.. sometimes I wonder if he is in the politics...

He passed away on 11th October 2011 when no one is around at home. What a day! All of us are working. . . Actually, previous weeks, I have visited him and prayed for him. He felt at peace whenever I prayed for him. I will always remember him fondly.. Not only that, may his passing be a lesson for me! That how guilty I am as a Christian.

I had the opportunity to share the gospel to him but i delayed cos I wanted Pastor Yeo to share with him. What is wrong with me? This question hits me hard .. like a slap on my face. Well, it is too late for me to do anything for him now.. I can only focus on my remaining household.

I kept thinking if only I visited him on Monday with my dog, I could have prayed for him again..

Seeing the ritual angered me further.. they got 3 taoists to do chanting for my uncle. Come on, the chantings are more like singing.. oh my, they sang in the most pitiful voices and the lyrics is like how sad and lonely my uncle is etc... like life and death is pre destined.. Come on man, you tell me who wouldn't cry like mad upon hearing something like this? ? And so my aunt cried so badly during the chanting.

There are questions which I asked during the wake.. e.g. why are they doing this? The answer is always... "I don't know, they ask me to do so I do.." Even for the burning of paper... the taoist wanted us to fold the papers into shapes like a boat or ingot like 6 hours before they burn the whole thing..

How to achieve that? ? Everyone except me fold like mad...and then I asked one of my neighbour who is helping out.. "if cannot finish by 9pm how?" He told me it is okay, we just need to try our best. The taoist will throw the rest of the paper (undone part) into the fire and burn..

My mind went " Then why must fold since they are the same?"

It is like the ritual was conducted in the way because of previous experience.. My relatives even asked so what will happen to my uncle.. Some answered he will be reincarnated while some said he will linger and then move on to join my grandparents...

My point is " how sure?" So when i shared about having eternal life when you believed in Jesus, people will ask how will i know etc.. Then should I asked them back .. so when you die, you sure you will reincarnate? No one knows what will happen..

Jesus Christ gave us eternal life whereby you can have a new body after you passed away.. but not many want.. instead they chose to go to somewhere else..

I am not criticizing other religions. It is like i feel so unjust over the whole thing.. Do without knowing the reason behind it...

The worst part is.. there are always some eerie incidents which occur that seems to bound the non believers. . trapping them.. Lord, I prayed that you will break the bondage that is bounding them. For in Christ, there is freedom.

As for me, I will remain faithful to Jesus Christ who loves me, died for me on the Cross and I shall have eternal life.

Few years ago, before my ah ma passed away, she accepted christ even though my mum feels that she doesn't know what is saying. But I know my ah ma is saved even though her wake is not a christian wake.

I prayed that my household will be saved! Amen. . Dear father, i prayed that you will soften their hardened hearts.

One Way, Jesus! You re the only one that I could live for.

I hope that my non believers relatives and friends will accept the gift of salvation! It is free.